are people only living for the sake of living ?

God, i dont want to disappoint you.
i know i'm a sinner.
but i really love him
i want him to know you too.
God, please help me.
In the name of Jesus, Amen.

living for the sake of living is such a silly thing.
what is a sustainable purposeful life?

i'm feeling like a hypocrite.
living and denying God in some ways.
i really hope i can get out of this soon.
what can i do?

Today;
we went to 'kill' prawns in someways.
we went fishing for prawns at the "Bottle Tree Park"
& we ended up eating them, cooking them while they are alive.
i'm such a horrible person isn't it.
hahas. but overall we had fun.
ate mac for continueously 1week.

Loves, Cherie (: